Hi me again!
Have you heard the sunscreen song, you know the one “wear
sun screen”.
I love it, I wish I’d come across it years ago. It is definitely ‘a
life song’…you know one of those which really chimes a chord in you.
The line that has been chiming loud this week is “Do one
thing every day that scares you.”
Fear has been a huge thing in my life, unfortunately it has,
or rather I have allowed it, to stop
me from doing things that I want to do just because I’m scared. I’ve spent so much of my life worried about
upsetting people, doing the ‘wrong’ thing, making a fool of myself, getting
into trouble or sometimes just too scared to do anything. However this week I
have done a lot of things which I was scared of doing but I did anyway!
I told my mum about my childhood and how it has affected me.
I got her to see my perspective.
I went to the dentist.
I phoned a guesthouse and booked a room for myself.
I drove to the coast and stayed overnight on my own.
I researched and put together a presentation.
I went to an interview and did my very best, believing ‘I
was good enough’.
All in all it paid off!
My mum and I aren’t fixed but she began to appreciate my
perspective.
I ended up having to have a filling.
The room cost me £35 and it had magnificent cobwebs!
I didn’t get the job!
Paid off?! You question. How is that it all paying off?
Well ….despite being scared, I did those things. I stepped
out, took a risk and I’m so much better and stronger for doing it.
Okay I didn’t get the job, but I realised, for once, I was good enough but they just didn’t want me….someone else will. I’ve just got to find the right place for me.
I feel like I’m moving out of my teenage rebellion and to my
20’s where I’m beginning to get a sense of ‘self’ and beginning to become my
own person.
Here's to pushing the edge of my comfort zone!
Hx
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