New Year, New Me!

I like and dislike NEW YEARS EVE in equal measure. I like the excitement of a brand new fresh start but really dislike the fuss of partying and counting down to the strike of mid-night.

I also hate the thought of New Year’s resolutions which state that I need to do something, or not do something, because I'm still not good enough as I am!

 

So how do I make this New Year different from the last? I still feel like I'm not good enough, too fat, too unfit, too disorganised, too lazy, too indecisive blah, blah, blah...

 

But this year is going to be different!! But, HOW?

 

Years ago I attended a 'Women's Conference' and one of the seminars I attended was called "Fake it until you make it!" This has just come back to me loud and clear! This year, well this next year, 2013, I'm not going to behave as if I'm not good enough, in fact, quite the reverse- I'm going to act as though I'm already good enough and live this new childless path with happiness and confidence as though I've chosen it.

 

So, in ONE year’s time, when I sit at my computer on the eve of 2014, what do I want to be looking back on? What do I want to achieve in 2013? Oh, good question!? What does the happy and fulfilled childless woman think? (that's me talking to my new alter ego)

 

 

New experiences, as in tried new things, rather doing what I’ve always done and what’s familiar. Found new things which I like and even those I dislike (I’ll know because I’ve tried them and made an informed decision) I would like to have developed new friendships so that I others in my life to share my up and downs with. Lose weight so that I am able to enjoy a fit and active life style. Stay in the moment and not waste time in the past or in the ‘if only’. Not worry about the things I can’t change and begin to accept them. And do something about those things I can do something about!  Achieve something because I stuck at it, and worked at it. But what? That’s far too 'waffly'.

 A new job. Get promotion.  Have a photograph published. Write a book. Drink more water. Take a dance class. Join an amateur dramatic group. Go to a photography club.  Lose 2 stone in weight. Buy a pair of size 10 jeans because that’s my size…. Now am I being realistic or am I just re-hashing the same New Year’s Resolutions from the last 10 years?! In some ways I am, but I didn’t have the determination or the need which I now have. And I’m giving myself permission to decide I don’t like something as long as I’ve tried it rather than decide that I probably won’t like it without trying it.

So here’s to a fun filled year of activity in which I am ALREADY good enough and ‘act as if…’

H x